It has been just over 4 years since my Mum passed away and I feep like it is important to document the process of grief. We always knew that Mum wasn't going to have as much time as others because pf all her problems but that didn't make it any easier when the day eventually came. I fell like this year was the hardest anniversaries that I have faced since she left us. I don't know weather is because the longer that she has been gone is the thought of her memory fading or just how this past year has been. My Dad had a gift made for me, a necklace which includes some of Mums ashes, I don't quite know how I feel about it, I think it's beautiful and like the idea of being able to have her with me and I will always be eternally grateful for but there is a part that finds it a little weird. I know that a part of me will always miss her and I hope that I am making her proud, she was my best friend who I could always moan to, be honest with and giggle until ...