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Feeling guilty with second child.

Written at 4am, 4 days post partem  I have so many emotions going through my system right now but one of the main ones is guilt. Guilt for Lilly that she isn't getting as much attention as she was before, I knew it was going to be like this and so did she, we are always open with her and I will always be there is she needs me. The guilt that I feel for Liam is stronger though, having a second child was my decision and so far it hasn't been too bad. The issue is that Liam struggles with the screams with every bum change, and to be honest I don't blame him, she screams for dear life. The other is that he is currently sleeping in the front room because he couldn't sleep, I am not sure why but I think that it is because she is being noisy tonight, not crying but constant little noises. He has expressed that he is enjoying having a second but I just feel that he is going to resent me in the end for the decision and I am going to feel so guilty every time he feels

Welcome to the world Olivia

On the 16th of April at 00:21 I gave birth to my second baby girl using just gas and air in a birthing pool, she was weighing 7lb 12oz and is absolutely beautiful. Me and my family would like to introduce Olivia to you all. She is the spit of Lilly at this age which is so surreal.  It has not been an easy adjustment from a family of three to four but we are working together and being as open as possible to make things work. Our days so far have been full of dirty nappies, baby cuddles and a huge lot of washing (which Liam mainly does). I think in a way we are lucky to be in lockdown but only for the fact that we get this time to adjust and learn how to work with each other. The sad thing about this situation is that none of her family have met her yet apart from on facetime which makes this such an odd and sad time for us all but I know that very soon we will (hopefully) be out of this and we will all be able to celebrate her, even if it is a few weeks later than normal. Vi

5 Ingredient Chocolate Cupcakes

During these difficult times trying to keep the norm is something that I am trying to do, and one way of doing that in our house is baking. We have such an easy, fool proof recipe here which consists of just 5 ingredients.  These chocolate cupcakes are so fluffy and go down a treat for a nice pudding. These are something that Lilly (aged 7 1/2) can pretty much bake on her own up until the point of putting them in the oven. Ingredients: 3 x Eggs Self raising flour - weight of eggs minus 2oz Sugar - weight of eggs Marge - weight of eggs Cocoa - 2oz Method 1. Preheat your oven to gas mark 5/190°c and line a tin with cupcake cases.  2. Mix the sugar and marge together until creamy and smooth.  3. Slowly add the eggs, one buly one, if starts to curdle add a small amount of flour. 4. Add the rest of your dry ingredients and mix together until smooth.  5. Place your mixture into the cupcake cases and place in the over for 15 minutes. 6. After 15 minutes check that the sponge sprin

Letter to our baby girl | Pregnant during lockdown

To Our Baby Girl,   As your due date grows closer, I am in awe of what my body has done for a second time, it has grown a little human from scratch but I can't help wonder when you will make an appearance. It is such a different feeling this time, and we all getting a little bit impatient now.  This whole pregnancy has been quite a simple one until the last few weeks where the world has been thrown into turmoil and my birth plan has had a huge change. It does mean that we can take the newborn days a little bit slower than we did with Lilly but it is also a scary time for big changes right now. I am trying to take in every moment of the end of this pregnancy with you, the movements and wriggles, the achy back, the growing bump and even the heartburn as I am not sure whether you will be our last baby and I want to remember every moment of it.  You are such a little fighter, you love the evenings, always kicking and pushing about in there. you get hick-ups quite o