A pocket of my life

To the no sleep Mummy's,   Last night was one of those nights where I was one of those Mums, a night with very little sleep. Olivia woke at 1.30am and was still awake and trying to play with teddies at 3am, we ended up in the front room on the sofa which isn't the comfiest.  Spending that time awake when your body wants sleep is hard, emotional and frustrating, every minute can feel like an hour and every noise sounds so heightened. I have been here many nights with Olivia, which is so different from how Lilly was. I have spent many nights sitting, holding her hand, cuddling her and rocking her and crying, or silently screaming and that is OK, it's hard and exhausting. It is OK to feel like this, being a Mum can be so hard physically and emotionally but you have to remember how amazing you are as a person, what you do for your child/children is incredible, they need you for so many reasons and love unconditionally.  Remember it doesn't last forever and that

To Lilly, I just wanted to say a huge Happy belated 9th birthday to our beautiful girl, you are truly one of a kind. I still can't quite believe that you are turning 9, I still remember the day you came, how small you were and how scared I was. You are kind, funny, clever and always put others before yourself which makes you such an amazing person to know. You make us proud every day and for that I am grateful.  I hope that you have had the best birthday possible and that you enjoyed your day, even though you had to go to school. We have some many more memories to make over the year and I can't wait to see the person you become, just slow down a little though! All My love       Mummy xx

Just over a week ago, I was very lucky to be part of an important day, a day that had been postponed twice, it was my Dad's wedding day. I am not going to lie, my emotions were all over the place leading up to the day and during too. I am so happy that my Dad has found some to be happy with and to look after him but it obviously brought Mum back up and the idea that she is no longer with us. The day started off with a lot of stress trying to get us all ready with hair, make up and making sure I had everything (which I didn't). Heading to Dad and Angie's house, piled up with outfits, cakes and bags. My emotions started the moment I saw my Dad, the feeling of him getting married was becoming real and exciting, he asked me to fit his button hole, which made me feel very proud.  Getting dressed up was nice, I never really have a reason to do so and it made it feel all the more special, we all had little tasks while we waited for the transport to arrive a

Some days you just need to let your kids blast off some energy and be tech free and what best place to do it than the woods. We always like to find new places to explore but this one is a familiar place to us, it's quite a hidden walk with some mini waterfalls and bridges to cross. We took this adventure with some of Lils friends which always makes them more exciting with them making there own story up as we took the trail, we also love to meet the dogs that are being walked. I think it is so important to let kids be kids without tech being involved and using there imaginations. I spent a lot of my time in the woods making memories and I hope that it continues with our children too. At this point little one is way too small to take these trails so I use the carrier, she loves watching lils run around and we try to involve her as much as possible. We ended the walk with Lils taking a bit of a dip in the streams, she came out very muddy and soaked