A pocket of my life

  Today we received an email confirming some settling in sessions for this little one and I really don't think I'm ready, in 2 weeks times she will be having 1 hour on the first day to try out and 2 hours on the second day.  The last 2 years have gone so fast and I will really miss her but I am hoping that it will help with her separation anxiety being a covid baby. I really hope that she will be ok without me near her but I think it will do both of us the world of good having some time to experience different things. Nursery is an exciting time though and I believe that it really will be amazing for her, to grow bonds with other, to communicate with people other than her parents and sister and do many things that we can't do at home.  I am emotional about it and I know there will be a few tears but I need to let her go and needs to learn to trust others other than me. We will get there but I think its gonna take longer than it did with Lils. 

My breastfeeding journey began before our little lady was even born, when I was just 34 weeks pregnant. My midwife told me about harvesting colostrum to give to our newborn and a have a store just in case. I was so intrigued as I so desperately wanted to breastfeed this time around. Harvesting Colostrum Leaving my appointment, syringes and instructions in hand, I was exited to try this out. Now this is an experience that both me and liam took on, purely because I could not see what I was doing.  It was tough going and frustrating at times, with spillages and not quite getting it right at first but we got there in the end. Starting off with a 1ml syringe, we filled that within 3 sittings and I felt quite happy, we tagged it with the date and I placed in the freezer.  As the weeks went on I was producing more and more of this 'liquid gold' until I was filling a 5ml syringe within two sittings. Now don't get me wrong, this can be time consuming but if it wasn't...