A pocket of my life

I am writing this, currently sitting on our bed rocking an almost 6 week old to sleep. Thisales up every one of my evenings lately and quite a lot of the day as she still whines a lot which puts strain on the family. I am starting to feel like a prisoner in my own room and feel like most of my days are spent looking at the same four walls, rewatching shows from years ago. I know lockdown isn't helping the way I feel and I know that a lot of Mum's are in the same situation as we are as a family. I am trying to put a brave face on for all three members of my family as I know this lockdown is affecting them too but sometimes I just want to scream about it and cry.  Don't get me wrong I am loving being a Mum of two, having more time with Lils than I ever imagined and getting to stay in a bubble with Olivia for a while but I think I am ready for a bit of normality to hit and for me to actually have places to go and people to see.

The past week or so has been a tough one for all of us. We have had tears and screams for out little Olivia to the point that she was inconsolable. We now believe that this is due to silent reflux, a condition that is sometimes misdiagnosed as colic. The tell tale signs for us were screaming after every feed, arching her back as in pain, hiccups daily, dribbling a lot of milk when feeding and red in the face a lot. There are the main symptoms that she has been suffering from.  After many pennies spent on colic remedies like infacol and gripe water, then for the doctor to say we needed to try a special anti reflux milk, none helped and if anything she was worse, the scream was like something out of a horror movie and was lasting for 20 minutes straight with no way to calm her down. I was a a loss and ended up ringing the doctors back, she has now prescribed her some Gavison infant to help, I hate the idea of pumping her with medication but so far it seems to be making he...